Suivant Sycophant

-'suivant' is French for following/obedient by the way-

Bored. Man, am I bored.

So, let's write a little something about my classmates. I study the direction Latin A (something like Latin-Modern Languages) at this disgusting school where only white middle class people go. Yes, I know, so am I. But it disgusts me anyway.
There's this one teacher, let's call him mister Smartass. He really likes to hear his own voice. Damn, does he like to listen to hisself. Well, I don't. Matter of fact, I really, really can't stand the guy. We just don't quite see eye to eye I guess. In previous issues, he even threatened to smash my head against the wall. He had said, because the class was being all 'loud' and stuff, that the next time we had to speak in front of the class, he'd be this noisy too. So I answered 'okay'. You know, it was kind of a reflex. So he went all apeshit on me and said, "yeah? Well, then that will cost you some grades." So I said "What? Losing grades? Because YOU speak while I'm in front of the classroom?" and then he really went mental and started saying he really wanted to smash me with my head against the wall. I think the guy has some serious anger management issues.

Anyway, last friday, he was showing some pictures and stuff of places in London, because we're going to London in a few weeks. This girl who sat next to me was constantly whispering commentary to me, very quietly, and I didn't even answer, I bet the people sitting a few meters behind us couldn't even notice she was talking, and all of a sudden mr. Smartass jumped out of his skin again, threatened to smash us with our heads against the wall again (seriously, what's the matter with this guy?!) Okay, well, he didn't immediately start threatening us, only after I started defending the girl that was talking to me. I told him, in a very nice, polite way, (okay, maybe not all that nice and polite, but hey, I wasn't screaming or anything either) that she really wasn't talking THAT loud at all, but you know, teachers, they never listen to their students do they? I think it just annoyed him that someone was talking while HE was talking, he really can't stand that, because, you know, he likes his own voice quite A LOT. Everything he says is all that important and stuff. So we started complaining and stuff, and all these lame people in my class, they just told us to 'shut up and do what the teacher tells you'

And this is just one small example of my classmates blindly following and defending a teacher/another form of authority without questioning anything. They really seem to idolize mr. Smartass/other teachers. Oh, and they try to bring me down while doing it.

A-fucking-HEM?!!

Damn, these folks disgust me. They follow and do everything a teacher tells them to. They listen to the music the media tells them to like and wear the clothes the shops want them to buy. They're just a bunch of obedient dumbasses really. If mr. Smartass would tell them to jump into the pit of an erupting volcano, they would definately do it. They never think about anything, they just obey and do it. Like last year, one of our teachers was absent, so we had study, but a lot of us (our class wasn't like this last year) were like 'Bleh. Fuck it.' So we played truant. Heh. We got no problems or anything, no one ever noticed it.
But some of my classmates, the same people who now defend teachers when they're actually wrong, stayed inside for one boring hour and studied.
Sickening.

Come on.

They just obey everything, do everything teachers want them to do, make their homework when they have to, and never go into a discussion with a teacher. I guess they're just brainwashed zombies or something. It's pretty alarming.

So, sometimes it seams like my whole class is against me. I don't get them and they don't get me. I wish I could go to another school or a least leave the class I'm in now, because they piss me off more and more everyday.

Damn, how I hate those suivant sycophants.

Me vs. Nationalism.

Ugh. Yesterday, as I was walking in Zottegem (the pathetic failure of a city aka the nearest 'city' where I live, I noticed this sticker on a pole. It said "against racism towards whites". Mkay. I hate racism, it disgusts me. Whether it's white people being racists towards 'coloured' people or 'coloured' people towards white people, it's wrong. It's awful. Being white myself, I also hate when a 'coloured' person just assumes I am a racist and I hate him/her because of his/her skintone, religion, whatever. This, people, is just as much racism as when I would actually tell that person to get out of the country. As soon as one person discriminates/insults an other person because of skintone or religion, we're talking about racism. I am against racism. All kinds of racism. Let that be clear.

So, basically, although I know Zottegem well enough to know how they meant that sticker, I had nothing against it. But, exactly underneath it, there was a sticker of 'Flemish nationalist youth' all in black and yellow, the flemish colours, and stuff. Damn, did that piss me off. It really fucking pissed me off. And today I saw some posters of the 'Vlaams belang' (The flemish nationalist party). And it weren't even posters of some 'rednecks' or stuff, but really, the youth. What the fuck. Face it, we, the youth, live in a community of people of all races and beliefs. And it's beautiful.
Of course, they are problems, let's not be naive and pretend all the immigrants are good people, and nothing is going wrong in this country. But young people who are that much rightists and that much believe they're better because they're white, they make me sick. Fuck, they really do. They make me feel so lost, like I'm the only white middle class girl around who actually has not even the slightest problem with immigrants or working class people. Why can't we just all live together in peace? Don't tell me immigrants cause problems too, because I know, but fuck, we, the youth, we should get rid of these problems in a nice way, not by just saying 'nay, you can't go into this country'. Youth nationilists make me worry all hope is gone.

There's not even such thing as a Belgian Nationalist. There's either Flemish or Walloon nationalism, but not Belgian. No one feels like a true Belgian I guess.
Now the youth of the Flemish nationalist party (well, not only the youth) are going so far, they even want Wallonia to be divided from Flanders. WTF? Come on, well that doesn't make any sense. They've become so racist and nationalistic they've started hating even the other, equally important, part of Belgium. Dude. I tell you, Belgium's fucked. Last year, one of the more right-winged, nationalistic parties won the elections. Not the übernationalists, but it's still alarming and disturbing as hell. It's the party who want Belgium to be divided, who strive for a fucking independent Flanders. And that while in Wallonia, the other part of Belgium, a socialist party won. And now those tho people have to figure out how to form a government from those two completely different sides. Guess what, they're failing. So much we even broke the record for 'longest without a government'. Without a new government, that is, because the last one's still ruling, they're just limited in their power for now.

Anyways, nationalism. Ugh. I fucking hate it. I really do. I'm quite a leftist girl. I mean, feeling better because you're white and middle class and Flemish? That really doesn't make any sense to me. I myself am not particulary proud I'm Flemish. Or white. Or middle class. All people are of the same value to me. Some people are black, some are white, some are yellow and some are brown. Some are catholic, some are jewish, some are moslims and some are atheists or of any other kind of religion. Everyone's a different person.. But we're all just human beings after all. I don't understand them nationalists/racists/fascists/whatever-ists.
I cannot understand them.
Are we better because we're white and Flemish?
Really, are we?
No.
No, fuck no.
Of course we aren't.
Think about it, black people for example, are better in almost everything. They run faster, they sing better, they dance better.
I mean, we're just lucky for now.
There will be a day the roles will turn, I'm sure.

Now, I love all sorts of people, but as long as they behave.
If a moslim kills his wife because she's not a virgin anymore when she marries him or shit, then that's wrong. Then I'm against it. Same goes up for gangs and stuff. I hate white criminals just as much, there's no difference. I would love all kinds of people in Belgium, they just have to behave. And I'm sure they will.

In short, I just hate young nationalists and racists. They say the future's fucked because of the ascending amount of immigrants living in Belgium. WE are the future, some day we will be in charge, and if so many young people start being such right-winged fascist bitches, then the future will really be fucked.
I'm feeling so fucking sick of  my fellow young white people right now.

Hello World.

Okay.

I guess since this is my first ever blog, I should write some shit about myself.

Allright.

I was born in Vilvoorde in 1995. I've been living in Zottegem, a small city in East-Flanders, in Belgium, ever since. Well, actually, I don't live in Zottegem, but in the suburbs of Sint-Goriks, a part of Zottegem. I wake up every morning to the sound of cows, donkeys, and roosters. It's very nice and peaceful and shit. I hate it.

I go to this catholic school, where we have to wear brown uniforms and stuff. I'm not even catholic, in fact, I'm quite an atheist, and so are my parents. I'm not baptised or anything. I hate my school. Everyone's too middle class and close-minded. They all look like clones to me. (well I guess that has something to do with the uniform as well).

I'm not a very outgoing person. Talk to me, because I won't talk to you. A lot of people seem to think I just dislike them when I sit there, very quite, looking at them, but in fact I'm just too shy to talk. Just so you know.
I feel pretty much like Holden Caulfield all the time. Unsurprisingly, Catcher in the Rye is my favourite book.
Yeah.
Since I live in the Flemish-speaking part of Belgium, Flemish is my first language. I can fully understand an English text, or interview, or whatever, but I'm not all that fluent on writing it and I'm just plain shit at speaking it.
Music.
Yeah, music.
It's my only home.
I used to like shitty pop tunes when I was in primary school. Then I went through a crappy pop rock-fase.
Then I discovered bands such as Alesana, Silverstein,..and fell in love with it. In 2008/ beginning of 2009 I discovered Green Day, and (though wether they're punk or not is arguable) that led to a love for punk music and the punk 'spirit' in general. More specifically, the Bay Area punk 'from Dead Kennedys to Green Day'

You already see the problem; I'm unable to be living in the Bay Area punk scene I adore so much, because, well, this is 2011 and it's not Berkeley.

I play bass. But only since September 2010, so don't expect too much of it. I love it though.

I'm still waiting for my real life to start.